i came to realise that i'm not alone.. struggling to pull myself out of this quicksand..
unfortunately.. only SOME can relate to this.. only SOME can be sympathetic.. only FEW are empathetic..
[i can't blog what i wanna blog.. because a reader forbid such contents.. so i'll leave it as it is..]
she wants to escape.. but she's bounded by the chains of reluctance..
she just want to let go of everything.. coz she's just over exhausted..
i can't meet everyone's expectations.. i can't even meet mine..
i'm so tired..
Lord, i've sinned..
Forgive me, Lord, for i have sinned.. only say the word and i shall be healed..
i surrender and lift it all to You..
the weight of my cross is incomparable to Yours.. and yet i keep falling so many times..
Lord, i pray for the strength to be like You.. please Lord.... PLEASE...
Your will be done..
Amen.
-when the blade seduces-