random updates again..

i met buddy up(like FINALLY please!) on friday.. haha... oh man.. i missed talking crap with her.. she and her lameness never fails to make me -.-'''' haha.. the most shocking part about that day was when i found out the new cost of the Chicago Cheesecake at Coffee Bean.. it went from $5.. to now $5.90 per slice! oh my mama! crazyness!

headed to kbox yesterday.. haha.. as expected.. the potato here had to smoke her way through those cheena words.. especially those traditional chinese ones.. oh man! i super couldn't look at the MV coz i needed to get the words.. HAHA.. so failure..

i don't understand why this time round we were given such a HUGE room! not that i'm complaining :p but it's like... when i went with my SIM friends the previous time.. we had to squeeze into a small room =/ this time there was only 4 people and we were given a room.. i think meant for about 15+ people? =/ so strange..


WARNING: Narcissism!

today i curled my hair! haha.. i think i look better in straight hair though =/ what do you guys think?

but in any case.. mum bought us the hair curler so that we can look glam whenever we wanna... haha..
but the sad part about today was that we combed the shops in the malls.. namely raffles city and suntec.. in search of our christmas dresses... to no avail.. so sad.. dunno why i can't seem to find something suitable.. ok.. this is gonna sound weird.. but i want someone which looks glam but sexy.. or just plain sweet.. haha..

oh man.. i've not done my christmas shopping -.-
i don't even have like a week or two, worth of break(s) for the christmas season.. like how crap is that? i got FM like on th 26th?!?!?! -.- so unfair..

we like to... MOVE IT!

hahaha.. yes yes.. i caught Madagascar: Escape 2 Africa today..

the monkeys and the broken telephone were super retardedly funny..
the penguins are still THE classic la! "who said penguins can't fly?" hahaha.. oh! i like the part where the penguin faked its death with the egg and ketchup! hahahahaa..

okok.. i better stop here lest i spoil it for those who haven't and plan to watch it..


oh man.. tmr so sian.. i'm going for FM class alone =( friends aren't around.. elc also gonna be different.. but at least got two of my usual cliques there.. not so bad.. just FM.. sigh.. confirm sleep one.. hahaha..

i've been tuning into my favourite christmas songs yet again! hahaha.. actually it's pretty much the same old songs every year.. haha..

anyhoos.. so my current playlist goes something like this:

O Holy Night - N'Sync (Acapella)
All I Want For Christmas Is You - Mariah Carey
Grown Up Christmas List - Michael Buble
Silver Bells - Rockapella


oh man... these tunes make me so happy... heehee.. O Holy Night is like on repeat like forever la! hahaha..

tired.. but really happy bathing in my music! (:

whooohooo!!!

my first ice skating experience!!! so fun yet scary and so xin ku!!! hahahaha..

i can't imagine i was bathing in perspiration despite the cold surroundings.. haha..

wah.. i was so jealous of the little girls man... they were like so pro can.. and here i am struggling to take baby steps to even skate forward.. haha.. at least i got the hung of it by the end of the so-called two hours.. haha.. but still trying.. haha..

and what a nostalgic feeling it was.. to sip on a cup of starbucks drink again (:

good day good day ^-^

sometimes i wish i can break free
any more taut and i'll just snap
trust me

forgiven? not yet
but hurt acknowledged
damaged
wounded
scarred, probably for life

inner struggle
gotta fight
gotta let go

my life's conundrum

it was a really out-of-form day for almost everyone..

fr pat's sick
dawn forgot to transpose her Lamb of God
choir's lao hong also
my scores are missing from my library

but it wasn't a bad day..


well i wanna thank God for giving me the opportunity to be a board member now.. and i really would like to thank the Altos for giving me their support.. i really appreciate it... i have no idea what i'm in for.. and i never thought of the day i'd be a member of the board.. well.. i'm just gonna pray and let the Holy Spirit work through me (:

another interesting piece of news is that i've became an understudy for conducting and song planning.. and i'm a bit worried.. coz i'm like totally clueless about conducting.. i can surely help with the choral bit.. but the conducting....... i can visualise myself flapping my chicken wings.. hahahaha.. oh no.. what worries me more is my music capability.. like me and bean sprouts are still mere acquaintance... haha.. i hope the choir will be patient with me as i learn along the way..

i'm really thankful for a supportive group, the whole choir.. and thank you all for all the wishes.. =) i'll do my best to serve this choir and to serve God..

please pray for me as i take on this new journey from next year Jan..

~
Here i am, take me
As an offering
Here i am, giving every heartbeat
For your glory take me
~

a truly strange day.. haha..

i sent someone off at the airport today not knowing who he was~! hahaha...

was having a really nice chat with mx and sally about life partners.. heehee.. like from qualities to having kids and even to mz's wedding.. i dunno why but somehow.. most convos i had today was linked to the future (:


oh man.. i'm so distracted again..
should i bury myself in audit or sing it away?

yay yay yay.. haha.. time to usher in the weekends! whoo!

time to chillax man! haha..

audit assignment can put on hold for a while :p

i'm so tempted to take myself out shopping tmr.. haha..

oh man.. i want the weekends to come SOON!!!

after tomorrow.. a BIG load will be gone! grrrr.... after that it's just audit assignment left before i smell temporary freedom -.-

i want to go out so bad..
go out and not have to constantly think and worry about work..
feel so sian man!

what's worse is that i'm so out of focus.. not enough effort is being put in.. so so siannnn...

please note that i'm not targeting at anyone in this entry k? it's just my point of view about certain stuff..

had an unusual conversation with a friend today.. about finding a suitable partner for life..

have you ever wondered what's essential in your partner for life?
is it beauty? is it intelligence?

care to share with me what you seek for?
drop me a tag k? (:

anyways.. that talk was rather inspiring.. i mean.. at least it assures me that i know what i want and need in my future husband.. but aiyo.. dunno if i offended my friend.. alamak..


anyways.. i was just telling him.. i don't seek for someone good looking or someone with like super duper high IQ.. i mean.. i'm really quite different..


~beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder~

a recall a friend once asked me something like.. if i were to meet two new people.. one fat and the other, thin... who would i 1st approach first? i was quite shocked that one could even come up with such a question.. i dunno.. but that one question says a lot about that person, i feel =/

i dunno about you guys.. but looks don't really attract me at 1st sight for some reason.. in fact more often than not.. it's music that really attract me to someone.. haha.. i was just telling him.. if only i could have a relationship with a radio.. hahaha..


~grades aren't everything~

do you guys feel that intelligence is a must?
for me.. i think i would appreciate it if a guy can at least have intellectual discussions with me.. this is coming from a past experience.. some of you know who i'm referring to.. haha.. not my exs though..

this is coming from the non-academically inclined person.. haha..
but i feel that with society now.. i think that the so-called benchmark of being smart is already there.. i mean.. just look at us.. don't we all already have our defined groups of friends?

our lives are pretty much like defined as we go along the way.. from the way we deal with situations to the friends we mix with.. etc.. i feel that it's the whole nature and nuture thing again..


ok you know what? i'm soooo super distracted.. i can't focus.. so i'm afraid i can't continue this entry coz my mind is a mess.. sorry.. but i would really like it if you can share with me your views on your ideal life partner.. so if you have my msn.. tell me k? (:

whee~ i'm finally went back to church! gosh it was great man! hahaha.. i felt so good knowing i could sing again.. like sing out loud, enjoy and feel the music~ yes! i soooo missed that feeling please..

after mass i did like the most bimbotic thing -.-.. i went to return scores to the library without first collecting the scores from my choir.. shiats.. how dumb dumb could i be? haha.. it must have been the fever that fried my brain sia.. haha.. still not over yet.. lol..

headed to lawrence's place.. man.. were we all well fed~ had a short practice.. but the room was kinda small so the few of us became the toilet singers.. haha.. it was quite funny when the two tenors literally wanted to go into the toilet to sing coz they were so loud.. haha.. altos got lost :p

anyways.. so the games com took over and i felt the way they got us groups together were quite cool.. basically we all had a strip of paper with half of a verse.. and we needed to go search for our other halves.. the group members have the same verses.. haha.. thanks to rosy.. she was like "have you found your other half? i hope your other half will be interesting".. !!!!!! -.-' tsk tsk tsk... haha.. notty notty wor~

anyways.. so we formed like the largest group can~ all the teens.. haha..

first game was trust walk.. thought it would be the normal stuff that i do like almost every year with different groups.. but this time i had a very funny leader.. Mr G! (gerard la..) goodness the adults found the teens group so amusing.. tsk! haha.. bully us.. haha..

the best part of all was the sharing la.. i missed it.. reminded me of my days in confirmation class.. i like the part where we each had to cut out an article/phrase/caption which describes us in our lives now.. and i dunno why our group had soooo many health magazines -.- but i stumbled upon "Women and Migraines" HAHAHA.. how apt.. then i saw NSMAN magazine and cut out "SIM" and "Doomsday".. haha.. see my link right? haha..

ryan had articles of abs, electrico and jay chou.. HA! dreams.. haha.. the funny part was when sean cut out jay's face and ryan replaced it with his ic.. haha..

our opening prayer was so cool please.. we wrote on each article.. we string our issues together to form our prayer! haha...

anyways.. what i felt was really meaningful was when everyone got to reflect on today's passage and we had to use the edible play-doh to mould into objects which represent the word/phrase that we reflected on.. from Matthew 25:14-30

so mine was a goldfish and a footprint(which i find so cute.. haha.. i brought it home :p)
goldfish - coz i don't wanna be like that goldfish.. constantly forgetting.. forgetting God..
footprint - just like the talents in the parable.. i want to always want to remain faithful to Him.. and walk in his ways..

but what really captured my attention was andrew's moulds..
he's right.. no matter how big or small we are.. God always give us only what we can handle.. 5 or 2 or 1 talent(s).. (:

just wanna pray for these members of my group this week(based on the activity):
amelia - may we trust Him and be that faithful and trustworthy servant
sean - may he find joy in His words.. from The Book of Joy..
amanda - may we all learn to remain faithful and join Him in His Kingdom..
ryan - may he be able to make the right choices.. bless him with the gift of right judgement..
andrew - no matter what tasks entrusted to him.. big or small.. may he handle them well.. and may he learn to manage his time better too

*~~*

okie.. spiritual growth aside..

oh man.. i feel so rubbishy can! as much as i was really happy and enjoyed myself thoroughly today.. concurrently.. some other things seemed so wrong..

i was so bimbotic today so as to bring my specs case out without my specs in it -.-

i broke my friend's specs

i think i traumatised my friend for a moment

my friend almost met with an accident

aiyo.. so scary please..

oh wells.. at least my friend is safe man.. i wouldn't know what to do coz i was actually on the line with my friend when it happened.. O.o thank God man..

and you know what's another irritaing thing? i think time is like running TOO fast! i can't catch up with it! it's like i'm lagging behind in everything i do -.- either that or i'm setting too high an expectation for myself.. sigh..

yet another week of school.. two tests at the end of the week too.. oh man..

why do i feel so stress? especially when everything isn't graded for the finals?

you know what i could really use right now?
Happy Food!!! haha..

i wonder what it's like to go for a chocolate buffet.. i was watching the tv.. and it was showing fullerton's chocolate buffet.. nini.. is it nice? haha.. man! it looks so sinful! but whoa~ looks so tempting wor~

something feels kinda out of place today..
can't put a finger as to what it is exactly..
head feels wonky..


oh yes! yesterday was my first day back to school! haha.. man it felt so weird.. i didn't know what to pack in my bag before i left for school.. hahaha... i miss the fresh air.. the mrt ride to school.. that usual routine of mine.. haha.. and sweet twinnie of mine did some yummylicious baking! haha.. thank you dear!

it's nice to be back in school again.. friends.. draggy lectures.. coloured pens and highlighters on my neverending notes and work.. and not forgetting ben's countdown for every lesson.. haha..

yup.. it's good being back at school.. but the work load ain't cool man..

so now it's time for me to CHIONG AH!!!!

I NEED TO SCREEEAAAMMMMMM!!!!


FR(Financial Reporting) is getting on my nerves!!!!


we're all dead duckies tmr! -.-

nini dear.. this is for Youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!

why does it feel so long since i last met you?

i didn't mean to leave you out on stuff.. please don't get me wrong.. i can't seem to get hold of you online.. and sometimes when i buzz you don't pick up.. ya i admit i don't try hard enough to ring you.. but darlin' you're still on my mind! awwwwww right? hahaha..

aiyo i worry about you la.. i hope all tough and sad times will be over for you soon... and girl.. please EAT! please SLEEP!! aiyo... i don't wanna see you losing weight again i tell you.. i will hantam you when i see you.. with a ruler like karib.. hahahahaha..

sorry i wasn't physically well to get tarts from you.. i miss your yearly pineapple tarts! ahh! nvm.. soon again right? :p

my dear bestie.. i will never leave you out girl.. you know that.. come on girl.. we've been through so much together already.. haha..

girl.. i just wanna let you know.. i'm here for ya.. i know you're not having a good time at your end.. though i don't really need the details.. i still think about you everyday.. girl.. you've got me man! haha..

*throws her buckets of hugs!*

*~~*

i'm just so thankful for friends..
it's so amazing He knows what we need

and Whose Line Is It Anyway was such a good pick me up.. haha.. thanks bro for that.. didn't occur to me that i could catch it online.. haha..

Thank you, Lord,
for the trials that come my way.
In that way I can grow each day
as I let you lead,
And thank you, Lord,
for the patience those trials bring.
In that process of growing,
I can learn to care.

But it goes against the way
I am to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.

I thank you, Lord,
with each trial I feel inside,
that you're there to help,
lead and guide me away from wrong.
'Cause you promised, Lord,
that with every testing,
that your way of escaping is easier to bear.

But it goes against the way
I am to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.

I thank you, Lord,
for the victory that growing brings.
In surrender of everything
life is so worth while.
And I thank you, Lord,
that when everything's put in place,
out in front I can see your face,
and it's there you belong.

oh man.. what is this..

anger fills the air.. EVERYWHERE~


looks like it's back to school for me! like whee! hahaha...
i miss my friends please~~ i miss the jokes and laughter... the tea and the snacking..

oh man.. assignments.. rush rush rush! hahaha..

wanted to watch quantum of solace.. but i'm too lazy and bugs caught up with me.. so makes me even more unwilling to go.. haha..

i can't wait for dec.. when most of my friends are done with their exams.. and then we'll hang out again! (:

speaking of dec.. oh man.. so fast la.. it'll be christmas soon.. and yet a hole in my pockets.. haha.. but i love christmas!!! ^-^ whee~

ok back to work.. just needed to be random.. haha.. little miss random.. i know..

Sharpay Evans!! imma gonna see you soon!!! and i'll be bimbo sessions with me again.. haha..

i've been MIA-ing for quite a while now..

been ill.. some of you already know what's going on.. and i really wanna thank you all for your care and concern.. means a great deal to me, really (: -touched-

i went for my 3rd test today.. finally out of that silly glass room.. haha..

but i got to go for my 4th on thursday..

been gulping down so much liquid and medication over the past few days.. it's coming to a week soon..

i've been missing a week's worth of lessons.. and i really wanna thank my twinnie for helping me with the notes.. i realy owe you one girl!

most importantly.. i wanna thank God.. for blessing me with such great parents..

thank you mummy and daddy.. for looking out for me.. for sending me to the hospital at such a late hour.. for tending to all the medical bills..

and thank You for being there..