felt so disconnected from myself today.. like i was without a soul walking around.. distracted.. partly traumatised.. traumatised by a really bad and vivid dream.. but i'm better now.. though still tad disgusted..


amazing how a phone call can make a difference to my day..

it was from an old friend.. i guess it was nice to know i was remembered.. and i'm glad could give him some advice he needed.. and i hope he'll do something about it.. i'm glad he took it well too..

i wonder why i can give practical advice to my friends but not to myself.. i guess like many others, when we're too caught up in our own situations.. we fail to see our folly.. instead.. some of us hope.. some of us end up in some kind of a delusion.. while some of us just have to suck it in knowing they made the same mistake twice..


it's really nice to know that i can make a difference in my friends' lives.. in a way.. it brings me joy.. knowing i did something right..


i know there are mothers who are so torn inside.. not knowing how to handle their children.. they take pains to raise up a child over more than a decade.. to find themselves in a situation where their teen turns their back on them.. it's kinda painful for me to witness too.. man..... no one can explain a mother's love for a child.. no matter how distant he/she is.. she will still show her love even in the every slightest way possible.. even a simple text message shows their concern.. but sadly some teens just shove them aside..

i'm no different.. and i'll admit it.. i know i wasn't a good teen when i was growing up.. looking back kinda hurts sometimes.. i guess it's all part of nature..