today was an interesting birthday experience.. who ever thought that my cake would be a birthday cake?! >.<

anyways.. you know what? just looking around me.. i see so many things... hear so many words..

i'm playing Tug of War.. well.. i feel like i'm the rope...

conflicts..
everywhere..
inevitable..

but why am i always stuck in the middle?

washing of feet? i believe i ought to do so for some.. while there are others who should wash them for me..

gosh.. church choir was something i used to look forward to.. but politics? a total turn off...

sense of belonging? slowly depleting...

but now i might be entrusted with a heavier responsibility.. oh gosh.. what a mess i'm in..


hopefully life will work out fine man...

oh gosh.. i'm thinking of Christmas... New Year's Eve... fireworks... and how lonely i'll be... well.. i guess life doesn't just always have ups...

life goes on.. i hope those blessed couples out there will have a great time in december.. may you guys always be in bliss~ (: