certain things have been really disturbing.. and i can't really point a finger as to what i'm feeling.. or how i'm suppose to react to them..
am i really too nice for my own good?
grace: why me? >.<i feeling like screaming.. yet there seems to be nothing i should be screaming about.. feel like screaming within me.. but that makes no sense..
well fortunately... i'm so booked with activities that i can't even remember who and what comes when... >.< haha.. i shall just live life day-to-day... i've got the urge to just run away.. sit under some palm tree with the breeze in my hair.. near the clear blue water.. watching the sunset.. basking in love... i'm high but i'm grounded. i'm lost but i'm hopeful. Life is inherently a contradiction in itself. i'll just leave it to anticipation.
"There are moments when i dont know if its real
Or if anybody feels the way i feel
I need inspiration, not just another negotiation"
-music & lyrics
i hate the girl i am now.. everyone's telling me they don't know who am i.. they seek for and miss the jovial girl i was before...
but i can't feign it can i?
am i happy? i don't know.. i can't feel it..
-and so, it shall remain as a dream-
