did not sleep last night...
went to church alone today...
sang my heart out hoping to ease my pain..
said my prayers...
hoping He'll listen and answer them all...

my appetite isn't good at all.. i can't even eat as much as before.. came back for dinner.. realising i could only eat like 3 spoonsful yet again... and i had to force them down.. blah..

on the flip side..
i headed to the arcade.. wanting to trash things out as i had very violent images in my head.. i didn't wanna hurt anyone... so i needed to get my hands occupied and hopefully suan enough so that i won't do anything stupid...

played that dream catched machine again.. and i got another toy!!! lol.. this time not so pro... my cat was worth $1... this time it's a mickey mouse.. worth $2! lol..

i looked around me.. thinking that i missed those times when i was a kid... innocent and so happy... it was so heartening to see families play games together... i didn't even need to play games to keep myself that occupied.. most of the time i just watched the people around me and it felt good... kept eyeing on the dream catcher though :p

i wanted the stitch.. but someone before me caught it... -pouts-.. nvm... heehee~

there was this punching bag and the other was a hammer thingy... both of which requires one to whack damn hard... and they would probably wish that they'll break the previous record.. of which i saw this adorable scene:
a guy was about to whack with the hammer... and the girlfriend stood super far away.. i suppose she was damn afraid of the loud sound produced when whacking the board... and when her guy broke the record.. she was so happy please.. lol.. so cute... the guy looked so stunned...
i realised no girls played both items... as much as i wanted to vent my anger out... i was so paiseh please... i think i can't even reach 50 points.. when the average of what i saw was a minimum 800... lol!

better still.. when i boarded the bus to head home.. as i tapped my card on the reader.. it read "pay cash to TSO"... i stunned la.. then later i found out from dar dar that our cards have expired -.-.. kena cheated la... lol.. i knew i had at least 5bucks in it... so i found it rather queer... haha..


i'm starting to dislike music for a period of time... love songs are really irritating me at this point in time... and what's worse is that "tong hua" can't stop replaying in my mind... same goes to the memories too...

well.. all i can do now is to pull myself together.. hope for company... and pull through all these..

as the cliche goes.. if it's meant to be.. then it's meant to be.. =)