looking good?

it's just complicated.. only can rely on friends now.. can't turn to him.. not now at least.. not until i know he's alright.. and that he's forgiven me..

so many words left unsaid..
so many messages typed were left unsent..
blood written message won't even make a difference..

i've lost courage..

Lord, i'm a lost child.. i've hurt an angel You've sent me.. will You please forgive me?
Lord, if this means depriving me of my happiness.. then go ahead.. let Your will be done.. You know what's best..

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to those that read my blog and have been concerned..
thank you..
i can't do anything else to express my gratitude for now.. but i'm glad you all still care..
i sincerely appreciate it..

to my lonely ice cream waffle today..
thanks for helping me feel better and sweeter.. couldn't finish you again.. nothing new.. heehee~
oh gosh! i'm talking to an ice cream waffle~ >.<

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dear friends.. please don't probe into the matter.. i really don't want to remember.. and honestly.. i can't remember much about what has happened anymore.. just know that many friends and i came to a conclusion that i was being used to just sow discord between us.. it was not worth it..

heed my advise...treasure your loved ones while they are still with you.. no matter the ups and downs.. just love them for who they are.. and for who they'll ever be.. and not for what they are and for what you want them to be..
when they are lost.. regrets can't save you..

to all my friends who are having a hard time with your relationships.. you are not alone.. i've been your love guru.. haha.. i am truly honoured.. i can only listen to what you all have to pour.. but ultimately.. it lies with your faith.. listen to your hearts.. listen to what you all NEED and NOT what you all WANT.. as the cliche goes.. if it's meant to be.. then it's meant to be.. not all is lost.. listen to yourselves..



i wish i could tell you how much I still love you, Dar Dar..
and if only i knew if you still do too...